You know I've been through some crazy stuff in my life. (I want this to be the beginning part of my book.)
This is a little bit about Who I am! What I've done ( good and bad). What has happened to ME... (My journey). My reactions to what has happened to me. My spiritual path & my next 50 years ( I am age 50 as I write this).
Somebody may ask ask why is this coming out now ... you're not finished ... My introduction talks about the next 50 years well that does two things e it gives me somewhat of a guideline to what I want to be I want to do in the next 50 years from today's standpoint, and it leaves room for book 2....lol
You know throughout my life I gave my mom a raw deal; my mom being Florence Halford my adopted mother. I really did give her a raw deal ... because she did so wanted me to turn out right and be a good girl. I just couldn't pull it off for a while... I wasn't a child that saw her family life wanted something different and changed immediately... Girl that saw her family life didn't want it and I still did some of it...
The parts I did was the drinking and drugging and the spending ... the shopping addiction... that is what I took out of my childhood ...
(The crazy part about that is I just did a "self sabotaging" blog last night ... That is what I had been doing since I was 20 years old ... self sabotaging... There are still times when I have to check myself and see ... am I self sabotaging now?)
I know now my mother gave me what she had... Maybe that's how her mother and father lived... I wonder was she abused as a child too ?
Life at home and life in the public was very different ? I saw every day she was the words coming out of her mouth do as I say not as I do it doesn't matter what I do I want you to do this...
But then again she didn't think what she did was wrong... But she didn't want me doing nothing that she did she didn't want me drinking she didn't want me doing drugs she didn't want me smoking weed she didn't want me acting like her
I just noticed this had not been published I am publishing it today January 8th 2015
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